Abso-fucking-lutely

It's at 6:26am that the world is actually asleep. No one's online anymore and the solitariness is bearable. They didnt leave you. They just had to rest. Besides, they'll all be awake at 11pm later.


Girl Day Plans

Be as shallow and maarte as you want to be.

1. Indulge in Fashion Magazines
2. Prep self up.
3. Dress up. Wear a skirt. Or shorts.
4. Don't be afraid to wear makeup for a while. I know you love makeup, but they don't... so you compromise yourself for them.
5. Don't wear the same bangles, watch and earrings you wear every single day.
6. Don't say bad words.
7. Watch sex and the city, E!, and chick flicks.
8. PINK.
9. Don't wear a backpack.
10. Use perfume.


Seriously, I very obviously try not to be as girly as I want to be lest being called maarte. It's inevitable though. Because I really actually am maarte by heart. I talk too much because I've got lots on my mind and I want it out. I want to justify everything. I curse a lot. I give in to peer pressure. I can be tad too nice or tad too bitchy. As much as I aim to be mature, I'm still a kid. I am so fucking imperfect.

And of course I'm insecure. Duh duh duh! Who isn't?




Thiiiss feels so nice.